transitions.

Friday, February 27, 2009

what i learn about life

1. never be poor.

2. its okay to let people step on your pride sometimes.

3. if you are poor don't be useless

4. if you are rich, its even more important not to be useless.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

im not suppose to be on this site, thats for sure. cause im working right now.

i've already handed in my resignation form ( verbally ) which means i didnt hand in a letter, i just said i wanted to quit. but damn, resignation form is really the cooolest shit.

but thats not my point.

i was listening to songs on my ipod, then this really really old song played. sort of grabbed me attention. and all of a sudden i felt so sad, like this weird feeling as if something poked my heart. or stabbed my heart. or shake my heart, well whatever it is its that kinda feeling.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XdzXwZvI7fA

thats the link, okay fine im gay. im listening to jolin tsai.

im so glad mr bruin is right now china studying mandarin, at least he found something he wanted to do. i wished i could do the things that i want to do, like study japanese or something like that. right now life is just full of crap, work work work and the sun sets, we played till dawn and i go to work again. but playing is definitely more important than working.

and lately something is really wrong with me, i just dont want to lose. im not a sore loser but i just dont like to lose. well who likes to lose and losing really gets me mad. losing in terms of what? anything, from big things to the tinniest smallest thing. even street fighter. damn. im really a bloody stubborn cow.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

i always wanted to write something but couldnt find the opportunity to write. and now that i have the opportunity to type, i dont know what to write.

i want to write something interesting about my life but theres nothing interesting going on.

crap.

z, its not that i dont want to go back singapore. i believe one day i will have to go back but its just not the time yet. i feel like staying in america is a form of escaping, erm. escaping reality? i dont know.

nvm ill just sigh till i fall asleep.

honestly i wished singapore is like an hour flight from america, but it isnt. its so far away, so ffff far. i wanna go back to singapore for a while. i wanna see the people i missed. zzz

okay now ill continue sighing till i fall asleep.

i cant sleeep now

Sunday, February 01, 2009

today my best friend went back to indonesia or rather hes going to china.

not that i'm not sad or anything but i guess every journey has to end.

kinda weird indeed, we've been there for each other all the time for the past... 4 years? since day of 1 of dvc i already knew this guy till the day we graduated from university.

i wonder if distance and time would change a lot of things. but once again, thanks for coming to america. kinda glad that we met each other ( im sure you're glad that you met me too ) HAHA. thats pretty obvious, like you always say im the best, undoubtedly im the best. hope you did enjoyed SD for your last weekend. after you left, i have one lesser friend and 1 more number to delete. weird enough indeed.

as distance grow, time difference, new friends and new environment, its undoubtedly our relationship or rather the things we know about each other will get lesser and get lesser.

just like when i was at the airport, so many familiar faces i saw there. wanted to say hi yet i get the feeling they pretended the don't know me. well its a pretty cold feeling indeed. weird enough, weird enough. but i guess thats life, everything has a part to play. like me and z, we hardly chat do we? work + school + plus the things around us just doesn't connect anymore. but the good thing we shared the same past. but it doesnt change the fact that you guys are treasured in my heart, the things you guys done is unforgettable ( honestly some are forgotten ). i meant unforgettable as in, if i get reminded i'll be like awww how sweet. that kinda feeling, you get it. and we will be speaking about the old times again.

sad thing that i we didn't get to take a photo before you left, i actually brought my camera but i didnt dare to take it out. i don't know, but well. at least we took one candid picture at san diego. its the last picture we took together? i hope you come back to the US again, we've been saying about staying together for over 3 years. LOL it never happened, not even close. its either me going LA or you going to SD, funny indeed.

even if we do meet up again, anyone i meant, things will definitely have changed.

to mr.dre, congratulation, i don't know if you are reading this. but i will write you an email soon but its just that i've been really busy this month. im really glad that you msged me, and i saw the pictures at the pavilion. hahaha, that was end of 06 to 07 huh.

its been a long time since i saw you, long long time indeed and i guess i won't be getting any chance to see you anytime soon, i assume.

whatever it is,

school days is the best isnt it, meeting new people, seeing new laughter, free of worries?